Friday, April 30, 2010

Birthday Bliss :)

"Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting; The soul that rises with us, our life's star, Hath had elsewhere its setting, And cometh from afar; Not in entire forgetfulness, And not in utter nakedness, But trailing clouds of glory do we come from God, who is our home." ~William Wordsworth

A warning: this is going to be a long post... Just cuz... birthday = much stuff to talk about...

What do you do on your birthday? I've always wondered how people feel about their special day... Is it special? Scary? Do you look forward to it? Wish it would never come around? I've wondered...

I look forward to mine. I don't know why really just that there's a general sense of excitement... an energy rising. Perhaps my body, my soul remembers those moments of preparing for birth? From the beginning of April I start to feel... prickly... it's a different sensory experience. April has always been my favourite month - ultimately things go right for me in April... even if it's rainy (April showers bring May flowers :P) or if it's school-filled... or work-stressed... April is the best month for me. And as I've said... I look forward to my birthday so it's a month filled with that bit of excitement - my birthday's coming up!

This year I took two days off from work. Who wants to go to work on their birthday? Not I. Not at all. It's a little bit of deliciousness in itself - not having to go to work.. lol. And so.. on with this posting: what I did for my birthday... and d day after as well. I think next year I'll extend it to a week.. lol.

I got up at 4.00 am. Approximately. What's that you say? Why did I get up so early especially as I had the whole day to myself? Early morning blessings - that's why. Enough to last the day - enough to last the year... some positive vibes for my birthday. My mom and I went to the Blue Star. It's an ashram that we belong to. They're almost to the end of a forty day period of observance... My birthday is Day 34 ... we went to do (listen/sing) the Guru Gita and to listen to the talk... and to generally get birthday blessings... Did I get Happy Birthday sung to me before 8 am.. yup. Did I meet someone who was also celebrating her birthday? Yup... Happy Birthday to Petra (?) I should've found out more about you but...

I was starving. I'm not one of those people that can skip breakfast. According to my mom... as soon as mih eye open I must get food. This is not true but also not too far off. I *must* have breakfast... food... sustenance. Otherwise I'll be generally grumpy and headachy and not happy. So... off we went for breakfast. Yay!

I like spending time with my family. We're all interesting people and though we drive each other crazy at times... and quarrel at times... and can be generally cranky with each other at times... overall we're good. Spending time with my parents on my birthday might sound weird to you... to me it's... comforting on a certain level.

Spending time with my mom - I get to hear the same stories... every year... lol... we laugh about it and talk about it and generally hang out. Did you know for instance that my birth date was supposed to be a week later on May 5th? You didn't... but I'm telling you now. Why was I born a week early? My aunt took my mom for a haircut... in her Suzuki Jimny... the roads in T&T are not the smoothest now and am quite sure they weren't then either. The very next day I was born... hmm. I love you mom - at least you had great hair in d hospital.

When we got home my dad and I had a falling out... vexness all d way. We have some serious karma to work out. It seems to me that every year around my birthday my dad gets all gloomy and grumpy. It's a cycle that hopefully this year has been broken. Fingers crossed... don't want any negative birthday drama next year. My mom says it's cuz we're so similar. I don't know what it is... sometimes you're so into a situation that you can't see what others can. Anyway... this year I think was better... drama didn't last long and in fact we ended up trying to fix d microwave together. Yes, I know we shouldn't even be using a microwave - but we have one and it's a timesaver when it's working.. A fuse blew (if you're wondering what was wrong with it)... and my dad being d skilled electrical-type guy he is has of course replacement fuses ready to be installed... Then we realised... the button to close the door was broken. Can't use microwave if door can't open/close... It's a sign from the Universe it is.

My mom and I went shopping... No mention shall be made of all the horrible traffic... or the heat in the car (mih a/c not working properly)... We bought dresses ... and they're pretty fabulous ones too :)  No pics of those here... look for them in May as they're going to be worn at my brother's graduation (my brother's *graduating*!).

The three of us went out to dinner... Missed you brother mine - good thing you call mih - when I getting mih present? *Ahem* we went out for dinner... my dad chose the place... that should have been a warning. A warning? Yes. My dad doesn't like eating out generally... Though he will if we want to go out to restaurants and such... We have found out however that he likes Indian food... as in real Indian food not the Trini version of Indian food... I don't... not really... can barely manage. He carried us to Palki's - an authentic Indian restaurant. *sigh* Sometimes I wonder if my dad just doesn't pay attention. Long story short... his plate was clean in under 10 minutes... I was wishing we'd ordered some naan to hide all my food under. The upside? He'd told them it was my birthday... after our dishes were cleared away and whilst I was talking to my bro on mih phone... Happy Birthday starts to play on the soundsystem... Loudly. I got a slice of chocolate cake layered with chocolate something... with a sparkler and a candle... Excitement + Cake + Sparkler shooting sparks higher than me! I stuffed myself with cake... who needs dinner anyway?

That night I answered FB birthday greetings... so many... I love you all... it's great to be remembered and thought of and sent good wishes and I went to bed .. earlyish... It was a foreign feeling... Early nights aren't that common when you're working/studying.

Day two of my birthday celebrating... hmm. It was a learning day. What did I learn? Stuff to feed my soul... and make me feel goddess-like... cuz ... well why not?

My mom and I had a private dance class at home... with Sabita from Symbolic Dance Academy of T&T... what type of dance? Belly dance... lol ... Fun? Yes. Fabulous? Yes. Goddess-Inspiring? Definitely... There is something to be said about snake arms and shimmies. Sabita was a pretty great teacher too in that way that persons who love what they're doing and know what they're doing can be. Perhaps I'll be doing more belly dancing in the future.

What did I learn next? That I'm an adult and can successfully deal with tyre rim repair people. Who knew cars were so much trouble? (my dad tells me I does hardly get trouble - ha! i say)... Anyway... it's strange going to car places... getting to be more normal but still for the while strange... The thought I keep in my head? "Fake it till you make it" - Of course I know what's wrong with my tyre rim AND I know what you have to do with it tyre rim repairman! *sigh* 

The last thing I learnt for the day... how to do my own makeup. I'm a girl... I wear makeup sometimes... I go through phases where I like and don't like lipstick/lipgloss/eyeshadow/eyeliner/mascara/foundation/powder... But... I'm 27 now... I should at least know how the professionals (makeup artistes... just so we're clear) do it. And so I signed up for a class at Sacha's Image Centre in Chaguanas.  Oy. If I had to do that whole process every day I'd go nutters. At least now I know which brush does what... and that cream-to-powder is the best type of foundation stuff for my skin. It was ... a learning experience and at the end I looked made up... lol. And so to end this post cuz I think it's going on a bit... here are pics...well.. more pics really... i think this is the post with the most pics to date...

Once upon a time...
Present day: 

I should've maybe done something with my hair before taking pics... oh well... 

Here I am at 27. Feels strange... I look almost the same as I did 5 years ago? 10 years? Physically I haven't changed significantly... It is the experiences... the day-to-day happenings, thoughts, feelings, ideas that have changed. A dear friend has told me that my writings remind her of this quote from Rilke: 
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions
It resonates. Sun in Taurus and Moon in Scorpio. Am a spiritual being having a human experience. Another year has passed.  


Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Tomorrow is my birthday...

"Inside every older person is a younger person - wondering what the hell happened." ~ Cora Harvey Armstrong

This quote is *so* appropriate. I'm going to be 27 tomorrow. When did this happen? How? Am I supposed to feel differently? It's a bit muddled inside my head as it usually is pre-birthday. This should clear up by tomorrow after all the birthday wishes... contemplations... cake... and other indulgences...

I admit I've started early on the indulgences... Oh Chocolate Éclair how you tempted me! I've also taken the following two days off from work. Who needs to go to work on their birthday? Once upon a time I might have... but that time was years ago and ended around when I turned 16 and had CXC Spanish Orals for my birthday.

As it is... I'm contemplative... lots of thoughts about who I am... what am I doing here... what's my part in the play... and so... I'll take the time to get some blessings... learn something new... and just be with myself...

There's a full moon in Scorpio tomorrow night...

Happy Almost-Birthday to me!


Monday, April 26, 2010

I can live in twilight.

"Twilight - a time of pause when nature changes her guard. All living things would fade and die from too much light or too much dark, if twilight were not." ~Howard Thurman

And I'm talking about that time of day when the sun is below the horizon not the vampire-werewolf world of Stephanie Meyer...

It's not only that I most like that time of day... but that it really is the most me-friendly. I like the sunlight yes... and I live in the Caribbean... Sun is a big part of daily life. It's warmth and golden and a lot of fabulous things... but... I've got somewhat light-sensitive eyes. The glare that exists for most of a sun-filled day is pretty painful... Transitions just don't cut it. I need to find me a pair of really really dark sunglasses.

Of course the sun's not the only source of bright light around. I remember when I was little that my dentist had special sunglasses (pink-rimmed if I remember correctly) just for me (ok.. maybe not just for me - but I always used them) cuz the light that they shine at you would bring tears to my eyes far quicker than the actual dentistry proceedings...
Over the years I think it's gotten better... it just tends to be more of an issue when I'm not feeling well or am stressed... My eyes tend to be an indicator of how I'm feeling... whether I'm having an allergic reaction to anything (bug-eyes - I get them then) or whether I'm just super-tired... It's a reminder to pay attention to my physical body... what's going on... why am I letting it get so bad... what should I be doing.

I'm grateful for my eyes... and the ability to see, read, experience life through the visual sense. If you try... for one day or a half-day to do without... you'll see just how precious it is.

Be aware of your body, reader... and be grateful.


Friday, April 23, 2010


"Synchronicity is choreographed by a great, pervasive intelligence that lies at the heart of nature, and is manifest in each of us through intuitive knowledge." ~Deepak Chopra

I've been trying to become more aware of all the coincidences in my life... the patterns that play out... the little things that lie on the edge of your mind that if you just become aware of would make life so much simpler, easier or more magical. 

As I've said in a previous post... I sometimes have an idea of what I want to write about... and so sometimes when the idea of what I want to write about sticks with me till I reach the stage where I'm writing - I do background research... lol... just cuz.. reading - one of the things I do best... and like to do best... hmm. 

I'm going off-topic though... am writing about synchronicity and one of the links I came across led to this great paragraph:
"Synchronicities are people, places or events that your soul attracts into your life to help you evolve to higher consciousness or to place emphasis on something going on in your life. The more 'consciously aware' you become of how your soul manifests, the higher your frequency becomes and the faster you manifest positively. Each day your life encounters meaningful coincidences, synchronicities, that you have attracted, on other words created in the grid of your experiences in the physical. Souls create synchronicities, played out in the physical. It is why you are here. It is how our reality works. "
 That pretty much sums up everything I want to say... It's a great principle to think about... become aware of... and sometimes when I think about it the memory that comes to mind is of the homeless man from Bruce Almighty... if you haven't seen the movie... go out and do so now.

And in case, dear reader, you're wondering what got me to thinking bout it today... I'll let you know... I subscribe to Story People's newsletter... got this in my inbox today:
"You carry this much stuff on your back, he said, & see how jolly you get."
And then I came home and as I was passing through our living room I glanced at one of the daily-calendar things we've got sitting on our television: 
It's the one on the far left which says today, April 23rd:
"Knock, knock,  
Who's there? 
Goliath who?
Goliath down, you looketh tired." 
~Clean Laffs

Obviously the Universe is trying to tell me that I'm taking on too much which is making me grumpy and I should go lie down. Obviously. Lol... At least that's my interpretation.

Dear Universe, You Rule!

Going to bed now. 


Thursday, April 22, 2010

Happy Earth Day 2010!

What do I have to blog today? A prayer ... a selection of quotes ... dedicated to today and all days cuz Earth Day shouldn't just be remembered/celebrated on one day but every day ...

Earth Day Prayer:
we thank you for this earth, our home; for the wide sky and the blessed sun, for the ocean and streams, for the towering hills and the whispering wind, for the trees and green grass.
We thank you for our senses by which we hear the songs of birds, and see the splendor of fields of golden wheat, and taste autumn's fruit, and rejoice in the feel of snow, and smell the breath of spring flowers.
GRANT US a heart opened wide to all this beauty; and save us from being so blind that we pass unseeing when even the common thornbush is aflame with your glory.
~Author Unkown 

"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has." ~Margaret Mead 

"It is the stillness that will save and transform the world." ~Eckhart Tolle  
"Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart, and I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again."
~Oriah Mountain Dreamer

Earth Day: Give Earth a Hand: Greenpeace Video

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Raindrops are falling...

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain." ~Dolly Parton

It's raining over most of T&T... it's cool and fabulous and most of us are thankful because everyone's been praying for rain. We've been in a drought. Water levels at our main reservoirs have been at all-time lows. Water has been rationed according to areas serviced. Bulletins have gone out to inform the populace about water conservation. Water tanks are sold out and there are waiting lists for when the hardware/stores get them. Overall, we've been having a lot of lack-of-water-drama. It speaks to me of a lack of awareness and preparedness... poor governance... a lot of things that should be looked at by both the populace and the government. Will this happen? Maybe. Perhaps as more and more people realise and start talking about what's happening change will occur. 

In the meantime... it's raining... according to Yahoo! weather (and the T&T Met Office) we'll be getting showers for the rest of the week. Pack your umbrellas people... and wear shoes (or carry a spare pair) cuz we know there's gonna be floods as well. 

Forecast for tonight: Scattered thunderstorms this evening followed by a chance of showers overnight. Low 79F. Winds ESE at 5 to 10 mph. Chance of rain 40%.  


Monday, April 19, 2010

Can't Sleep...

"What hath night to do with sleep?" ~ John Milton 

The answer to that quote: everything. So much to write about, think about, talk about, do. So busy... where is my weekend? Oh wait... it's now Monday.

Why can't I sleep?!


Friday, April 16, 2010


"When you have a disease, don't try to find a cure; find your centre, and you'll be healed."~Ancient Taoist Proverb

I never really know what I'm going to write till I start typing. Tonight I felt that I'd do a brain dump - there are so many things happening in my school life... my work life... my life as a whole. I've got so much work to do and deadlines to meet. My country is super-charged with elections in the air. It's just a lot of frazzled energy to me. And so... earlier when I thought about blogging I thought I'd do a brain dump and get it all off... Then as I signed in to do this post ... Martika's song "Love, thy will be done" starts to play on my playlist. 

It is quite simply a most gorgeous song. And everything in me just... relaxed. Like a cool breeze brushing through my body and mind. Must remember to breathe... and stay centered. It's a much better alternative to complaining... 



Wednesday, April 14, 2010

New Moon in Aries tonight...

"The New Moon is a time best suited to making new beginnings! For the first 48 hours following the exact time of the New Moon each month, a window of opportunity opens for making wishes that, if written down, come true in the days and months ahead."

There's a new moon in Aries tonite.. time to prepare for change as this moon is for flying free... let go of the old... make room for the new. According to (one of my most favourite sites on the WWW), "the New Moon signifies the conjunction of the Sun and Moon as they occupy the same sign of the Zodiac. The Moon appears to be invisible because it is eclipsed by the rays of the Sun. This is an excellent time to retreat and reflect upon what you want to create for the coming month. Meditate, get clear about your intentions and for added power, write a list of what you want to manifest."

It's time for me to re-center... focus... determine what I want and put the energy into making it happen. In two weeks it'll be my birthday and I believe the full moon... excitement for me is having the full moon on my birthday. I've always been into the moon and its cycles... perhaps because I'm female? perhaps because once in a past life I was dedicated in service? perhaps because night time is the right time? lol... I don't know and I don't think I need to know more than the fact that I tune into that energy easily. It is soothing and yet exhilarating all at the same time. 

What would you like to manifest? Now is the time. Make your lists... set your intentions... breathe. 


Calling Captain Planet...

"The natural world is the larger sacred community to which we belong. To be alienated from this community is to become destitute in all that makes us human. To damage this community is to diminish our own existence."
~ Thomas Berry

There are things that hurt my heart... one of them - a major one - is the destruction of our natural environment. I don't understand how people can damage and destroy the planet... It's a whole big WHY to me...

I live in Trinidad (Trinidad & Tobago, WI)... it's a fabulous Caribbean country that I no longer recognise. Over the past 20 years or so we've morphed from a lush tropical paradise into ... a somewhat industrialised nation.

It's incomprehensible. Why turn arable land into roads & buildings & then have to import food? Why damage the mangroves, forests and swamps to build ports and smelters and who knows what else. Why so much quarrying? Why? Added to that why - after destroying all the natural mechanisms that would prevent floods, fires and other similar disasters - would people then start to wonder about what's going on? 

I'm an online activist... I sign petitions for Greenpeace and Avaaz and others that promote protection of the environment worldwide. It makes me feel helpless that in my own country I can't do much. Is it that I can't do much? I shall investigate to see what I can do... in the meantime ... I wish people would wake up. 


Sunday, April 11, 2010


"The power of the word is real whether or not you are conscious of it." ~Sonia Choquette 

I learnt a new word today. I'm fairly late at learning it as after having googled it I realise it's been around some months now but that's alright - learning something new whenever you learn it is always a good thing.

My new word for today: "vajazzle" - it's been introduced to the world by Jennifer Love Hewitt though I understand that the concept has been around for some time. What is the concept? Vajazzling is like bedazzling your lady bits with stick-on Swarovski crystals. Lots been said on-line about the how and the why of it... I guess it's up to each person just how decorative they'd like to be.



My doodles are spiral-shaped... mostly...

The growth of understanding follows an ascending spiral rather than a straight line” ~Joanna Field aka Marion Milner

Have you ever noticed whether you're drawn to a particular shape or sign? There is meaning in everything if we just look and are open to the understanding it provides. 

For the past few years I've been drawn to the spiral... or spirally-shaped stuff... Last May I bought a book by Angeles Arrien (Signs of Life - The Five Universal Shapes and How to Use Them). In her research for this book she found that five basic shapes which appear in the art of all cultures and that similar meanings are given to these shapes. What are the shapes? The circle (wholeness), the square (stability), the triangle (goals and dreams), the cross (relationship) and the spiral (growth and change). The book also says that she found that the meaning attributed to each shape stands for a process of human growth, and that the shape carries this process within itself. Using the five shapes, the author developed a 'Preferential Shapes Test' to be used as a tool to determine a person's preference for a certain shapes and the same person's inner subjective states. The test then, can be used as a key to a person's current growth process. 

I did the test. The spiral shows up in Position 1 indicating that the process of growth is the one I believe to be the most important for me at this time. I guess growth is my lesson in this lifetime. Spirals symbolize the process of growth and evolution - of returning to the same point again and again, but at different levels so that everything is seen in a new light. I've observed that spirals appear in my life in all circumstances... it seems that there are situations I repeat over and over and each time I learn something new. It is said (I can't remember by whom...) that life will keep sending you the same situation repeatedly till you learn all the lessons you can from it... whether this is comforting or scary or both I can't be sure. 

This passage on the spiral resonates with me so I'm sharing:
"Those involved in the spiral process have a strong need for variety, novelty, and change. They dread routine and they are capable of doing multiple tasks well. Creative and ingenious, they are adept at initiating and following up on projects, although they may have some difficulty completing them. The challenge of this process is to grow and develop at different levels of awareness. During times of change, creativity is required to handles life's situations and challenges with integrity." Arrien (1998, pp 47)
Where is the spiral in your life? What shapes speak to you? What signs are there to give you guidance on your journey? Become aware... or just... be present.


Friday, April 9, 2010

Election Fever... or Holy Wow! Parliament's been DISSOLVED!

"Government is a contrivance of human wisdom to provide for human wants. People have the right to expect that these wants will be provided for by this wisdom." ~Jimmy Carter

 It's now after 1 am. Parliament was due to be dissolved at midnight so I can only assume that it is so. Is there any Trinbagonian not talking about it? I don't think so.

What this means is that we're going to be holding a General Election within a minimum of 35 days and a maximum of 90 days. OMG! and breathe... We're not constitutionally due for a General Election till 2012 but I think most people would say that we're ready for it. Can only hope that the Opposition parties get their act together.

Exciting times ahead... shall hope that all is done as cleanly as possible... but knowing T&T and our penchant for bacchanal and picong... hmmm.... fingers and toes crossed. 

Links to news articles:

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Manipura - Fire, Ego identity, oriented to self-definition...

"The point of power is always in the present moment." ~ Louise Hay

I really must remember that at the very heart of it - I'm a powerful being. Don't worry reader... You are too... You just may not know it yet. 

In my second post on this blog I said that I was tired... and needed to manifest vitality. On Easter Monday I went to a Youth workshop at the Blue Star - topic of the workshop: Working with the Manipura Chakra. Hmm. 

For those who aren't much in the know about the Chakra System - the chakras are energy centres linking the physical and subtle bodies... more info can be found here: Sacred Centers - The Chakra Portal ... There are seven major ones and the third is the Manipura Chakra which is known as the power chakra and is located at the solar plexus. It relates to a person's vitality, effectiveness, spontaneity and overall power.  

Ask and you shall receive... it's a principle I must remember. Shall be working with this chakra for some time... Increased vitality shall be mine!


Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Moved by the music...

"We pass through hundreds, thousands, perhaps millions of existences. In each lifetime, we're exploring another part of our own self, which is eternity." ~ Frederick Philip Lenz, III

This is an in-between post... a post that I'm just posting as I feel the need to instead of it being planned that oh! I have to blog! ... Does this mean I'm getting into the hang of blogging? Perhaps...

I'm in serious love with One Republic's song "All the Right Moves"... It makes me feel like dancing... and singing... which is perhaps what great songs do. Am aware that people's love of music is subjective... I myself have such a wide span of music love that it's hard to pinpoint what I do and don't love.

Am also in serious love with the video for that song... it is gorgeous. Masquerade balls? Ballroom dancing? yup... I love it. Stuff going on behind the scenes yet in plain view? Love love love... lol 

Was watching the video today though ...whilst in work... I really should be working... ergh... anyway. Was watching the vid today... and remembering how much I love stuff that has those elements... ballroom dancing... fabulously dressed ballroom ppl... Phantom of the Opera's Masquerade scene is one of my *favourites*... and am thinking to myself... why do I like it?

Does it speak to a part of myself that I don't know about? Was I around in a past life in that time period? I believe in past lives... fully and completely... if it offends you dear reader then don't read this post. I love the dresses and the general air of how that time is portrayed but am quite sure I would not have liked having to dress up and such that way all the time. Is it that my major liking for comfort clothes now is a throwback to such a time? Who needs corsets anyway? Except in certain circumstances of course. Am also sure that what is portrayed through film and theatre now - the elements which I really like - would have been a small part of life in that era. It shall remain a mystery I guess...

I've done past life readings both with people and by myself (through the use of Tarot) and what I do know is that when people say I've got an old soul the best thing to do is smile mysteriously cuz it's a truer statement than they think.


Monday, April 5, 2010


"Creation is a sentient and instinctual flow that determines where to go and what to change or omit."
~Shaun McNiff

I should have been writing some post about my weekend... instead I was playing around with blogger and layouts and such...

Got pounded... submerged... tossed around... by waves at Maracas Beach on Saturday... It sucks sometimes being small and non-heavy. Spent time with the parents... ate pineapple chow & corn soup though not at the same time... Got some shades darker.... Yay for tanning and not sun-burning!  Was reminded of being playful and enjoying the moment by a dog pack... How big a group does a pack have to be before it's labelled as a pack? Got one of the dogs to pose for the camera...  

Sunday... Happy Easter!!! I can still say that as it's now Easter Monday and a holiday in T&T... sweet T&T - I love you for all the holidays... I thought Sunday would be a lazy day.. and it was in part... my dad made mango chow... and that's the 2nd time I've mentioned chow in this post... maybe I'm hungry? lol I've noticed that tends to happen at this hour... 

It's a long weekend... I feel rested somewhat... focused somewhat... my horoscope for today just appeared in my inbox and I am a force to be reckoned with! though I also have to be cautious about risk taking and planning for the future.. hmmm. 

I should go to bed. Workshop on chakras & leadership in the morning... looking forward to the workshop... not looking forward to having to be with some of the people that will be there... Please universe... let me be nice and non-scary to the ppl even if they annoy me. Thank you. 

Love to you world... it's a good time of year... 


Friday, April 2, 2010

Maybe the day was today...

"Things don’t change. You change your way of looking, that’s all." ~Carlos Castaneda

Earlier today I was all set on manifesting a day of calm nothingness... that's so not happening this weekend.. and maybe I don't really need it to happen... maybe the universe gives us just what we need... so that instead of a day of calm nothingness (what would I do with a whole day??) I got moments today... of calm... of bubbles of joy... of silliness. 

So yeah I had a group meeting... *all day* ... ok... most of the day... I exaggerate a lot sometimes and am my father's daughter in that regard... we got stuff done... we've got more stuff to do... At one point though one of my group members stopped and said "you all ever did that thing with the egg white in water on Good Friday?" ... lol 

I talked to my mom about it after posting that last post.. she said her mom used to do it with her.. so I guess it's some obscure tradition that not many know about? and then ... my groupmate apparently used to do it with her mom... so. is it a female-only tradition? I've learnt that it is a Good Friday-only tradition so will have to stick to other means of divining for the rest of the year... 

I feel good... got a song stuck in my head since... yesterday? Makes me feel just a bit wassy.. lol...

Am off to the beach tomorrow... sun, sea and sand... shall hopefully avoid crowds and traffic... manifest... 



"I said to my soul, be still, and wait...So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing." ~
T.S. Eliot 

My moment of silence and stillness comes at 4.07 in the morning. I don't get enough time to appreciate it or sit with it or lay down with it I think... Eyes snap open and there is a moment of peace before all that I must do and have to get done for the day rushes in. I manifest a day when I can just lay there and enjoy hearing the dawn break and the world wake up. Or maybe instead of thinking of work I go outside in the cool before the heat and listen to the birds... they're really noisy now. 

It's Good Friday and after all those RI classes and catholic-school attendance... I can't remember what it means... Am trying to find the vision and mission and objectives of an oil service company for a study group meeting today. I don't believe in oil companies or oil service companies ... pretty tough spot to be in when your country's economy is based on oil & gas... Why am I doing this again?

When I was a little girl Good Friday's were for waking up before the sun came up to break an egg...collect the egg white.. put it in a glass of water? I can't remember... What patterns do the sunlight make when it hits the egg white? It'll tell your future for the year... Hopes, dreams, aspirations... maybe a different way of manifesting... does it only work on Good Friday? I'll have to find out. 

Am off to do my school work.. study group meeting at 9 am... 

Manifesting a day of calm nothingness... not today but maybe this weekend?