Thursday, June 16, 2011

There are men sexier than I am.

"I am not handsome or sexy. Of course, it's not like I am hopeless." ~Keanu Reeves 

I should clarify that title by saying that there are men that are sexier in a feminine way than I am. I've known this for years of course (I know guys that can rock super high heels *way* better than I can)... it's just a little bit unnerving. Surely as a female I should have some innate sense of sexy movements?

I don't. At all. My body does not know how to move in certain ways... or it's just that I'm sexy in a way that's not the norm. It occurs to me that I should look up the meaning of sexy since I seem to be using it a lot in this post... and so, as defined by dictionary.com,

sex·y

[sek-see]  
–adjective, sex·i·er, sex·i·est.
1. concerned predominantly or excessively with sex;  risqué: a sexy novel.
2. sexually interesting or exciting; radiating sexuality: the sexiest professor on campus.
3. excitingly appealing; glamorous: a sexy new car.
So... hmm. Now I'm not sure that's the word I should be using... maybe sensual? seductive? Am not sure.

By now you're probably wondering why I'm rambling on about sexiness (or lack thereof) and it's simply that - I signed up for belly dancing... except it's a combined class which teaches both belly dancing and burlesque... Today was my first class and whilst I'm excited about the belly dancing (though my hips don't move by themselves - am a poor example of a Trini), the burlesque moves just make me want to giggle ... in a 'really? you want me to move like how now??' kind of way... if moves like the bend and snap can make me feel awkward then these moves... oh my word.  

Awkward in the extreme... and because I've got a fairly expressive face the whole class was aware of my level of discomfort... and the instructor - one very slim guy with way more moves than I could hope to have (and way better hair as well) just shook his head at me... in a 'oh-honey-you're-hopeless' type of way (at least that's what I interpreted it as). *sigh*

I'm told to practice, practice, practice. The thing is that I enjoy watching burlesque and belly dancers... I think they're most sensual and fabulous and just generally awesome... can I see myself in those moves? nope. Obviously I need to change my mindset... maybe then I'll get some moves.



night all,
Ren

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