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Friday, January 20, 2012

Strictly Stream-of-Consciousness...

"Words are a form of action, capable of influencing change." ~Ingrid Bengis

I'm doing this from my phone so all formatting will get done at another time. Haven't felt like writing but have been trying to post Monday - Friday so... Didn't want to fall off the wagon. Stream of consciousness - what's going on in my head? Not just my head. I'm tired and a bit cranky and a bit hopeful and a bit sad. Bits and pieces of things make up my life at the moment.
I don't know what I want to do with my life. I admire those who do. I have skills and talents - I don't know how to tie them all together into something that will be of benefit to the world and to myself. I know I don't want to continue at my current place of work. Regular blog readers are probably tired of reading that. Wrote an email that upset management - it wouldn't have if they were doing what they were supposed to be doing. Truth hurts. Am not particularly concerned with the fall-out. Am wondering if I should be. Am disappointed by the lack of solidarity but that's on me - one should never have certain expectations about people.
My mom's not having a good day/night... This kinda means I won't either.
My dad's birthday is tomorrow - he's moody (though he won't think so) - it's something we're used to.
My brother beat me up today - this is not as bad as it sounds - the thing about having a sibling is that you've always got a sparring partner ... We're learning Wing Chun.
I think I damaged some delicate bits with my first time use of this DivaCup... Maybe tmi for the Internet but... Ah well.
I'm not sure what else I'd like to write ... Whatever it is... I've still got a minute or two. I wish life was easier to understand ... Wish I'd wake up one day and wonder and know what I should be.
I'm building towers on the ground and castles in the sky.
It's my bedtime.

Peace,
Ren

4 comments:

guaicotamana said...

How about trying something you've never tried before?

Ren said...

Yes... but what?

Am open to suggestions :)

guaicotamana said...

Do you have vacation?
take a trip and do the yoga teacher thing

If you'd told me back in 2009, three years ago where I would be now, I would have said you were crazy.

Ren said...

I have vacation days... but have limited funds, and also don't want to be far away from the mother for long periods right now.

Am exploring options.