Monday, April 30, 2012

Giving thanks...

"Gratitude is a form of wisdom. It is patient, loving, hopeful, and rigorously honest. It denies nothing, and it overlooks nothing. It looks reality full in the face and says: This is true, this is me, this is my situation, and I have the opportunity to build from here. This is my starting point, and I will succeed!" ~Phil Humbert

Took the weekend off for my birthday... not going to feel guilty about  missing days this month. 

I'm grateful for all the birthday wishes and blessings. We touch lives without knowing that we do. Just taking some time today to experience the moment, be thankful and appreciate.

Wanted to share some sort of video about gratitude... or some prayer... or something... but... I keep circling back to this: 
this is what is needed for today's post apparently.

Wishing you a blessed week... new month tomorrow...


Friday, April 27, 2012

The day before the birthday...

"We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share. This is a precious moment, but it is transient. It is a little parenthesis in eternity. If we share with caring, lightheartedness, and love, we will create abundance and joy for each other. And then this moment will have been worthwhile." ~Deepak Chopra 

A snapshot of events/convos that took place today. Times may be rounded off or approximated.

1.45 am - awakened by the mother because she's in pain. Cancer sucks ... I'm reminded of that constantly. It's somewhat heartbreaking to have someone you love in pain. Also felt somewhat guilty... because I'm sure I was a bit grumpy at that hour - surprisingly I was in a very deep sleep - the parent with cancer does not deserve being grumped at when she's in pain in the middle of the night. 

4.43 am - awakened by the Cat chile... he went off liming somewhere last night and didn't get home in time for food so we didn't put any out for him. He got home around 4.40ish and started yowling in front of my window... in a "OMG! I'm STARVING!" kind of tone. I tried to block him out. I pulled the pillow over my head... He's a hunter right? Is supposed to be able to hunt for food if he has none? Hmph. Of course I got up and gave him food. 

6.45 am - was told by the father that tomorrow is my birthday. :-|

8.25 am - was told by the parking guard that the reason I couldn't park in the parking lot was because my coworkers were insensitive, unreasonable and couldn't park... took one look at how the cars were parked and had to agree with him... apparently he's been trying all week to get people to park properly and today he gave up... ah well. People - be sensitive... that is all. 

8.36 am - was told that I should not be wasting my potential at current workplace. I am young and brilliant and should get a job that is going somewhere or that at least allows for me to make use of my skills!

9.20 am - got Happy Birthweek wishes from Mars

9.40 am - got Happy Birthday Eve wishes from Pix 

10.10 am - lost all interest in work... had an interesting discussion on Twitter about how soon is too soon to be having sex with someone.

10.30 am - flirted with the cute guy... cuz that's what cute guys are for. 

11.42 am - got kisses and birthday wishes from the lady that does my eyebrows... it always helps to develop relationships with people that work on your body with hot wax.

12.03 pm - got heckled (psst-ed) by guys in three different vehicles as I walked from parking lot to office building. Tip: If you want to attract attention wear red... or gym clothes.

12.22 pm - got a birthday gift from Shoeaholic! I had to resist the urge to read it all day... somewhat succeeded - only got to page 19 by the end of the workday.

Afternoon... somewhere between 1 and 4 pm... Felt sleepy... did paperwork so that next week (which I've taken off from work for my birthday and my sanity) I won't be called back to office to fill out anything. Office discussions about work/life/birthdays/cake/baby names/stalkers. 

4.45 pm - called the brother to find out if we needed anything at home... was told to buy bread... I swear bread is perhaps the foodstuff that we eat most.  

5.20 pm - got called a 'sweetheart' by an old lady. I guess I look like a sweetheart?

5.45 pm - talked with the mother about my grandma and my aunt (both from mom's side, both deceased)... she's been thinking about them all day... says that wherever they are she's sure they're thinking about me... talked about how happy people were when I was born (I think people forget that birthdays are also important times for mothers)... talked about having a good life and a good death. 

6.40 pm - the father told me that tomorrow is my birthday!

It's the little moments that make up a life I think... am off to play with/talk to the Cat chile... and try to get to bed before 12.


Thursday, April 26, 2012

Thoughts on ageing...

"We should so provide for old age that it may have no urgent wants of this world to absorb it from meditation on the next." ~Pearl S. Buck 

This Saturday is my birthday. Yesterday, I had lunch with one of the girl people and talked about life and parents. Today, I had a meeting with persons who are somewhat older than my parents and who raised various points about the ageing population in Trinidad and Tobago (though that wasn't the reason for that meeting at all). 

It's just stuff that makes me think. 

I'm going to be 29 this Saturday. I'm thinking about where I'm going and where I've been and the different stages in one's life. 

I've mentioned in passing that I live with my parents - it's kinda the norm here. I have cousins older than I am that live with their parents. It's, I think, partly due to tradition and partly to cost of living. In my case, there's the fact that I can't afford any place by myself... hmm perhaps I can... maybe? I'm not 100% sure... The other factor: whilst I know that I'd like my own place, I also know that I'd worry about the parents (especially the mother) being on their own - just this morning my mom was speaking about the possible need for a companion if ever any of us (the brother and I) aren't at home. What will parents do if I'm not here? Who will take care of them? Who can I trust to take care of/just generally be around them? Oy.

Points that came up in my meeting today were that Trinidad and Tobago's population is ageing - persons don't know what's being done about that and there's apparently a lot of old people's homes (I'm not sure what the correct terminology is for this) springing up that do not conform to any kind of regulations (regulations? there are regulations?). I must do research. There's a Division of Ageing in Trinidad and Tobago. I'm somewhat grumpy because I can't find the National Policy for Ageing anywhere online. I'd like to know what's being put in place for our ageing population. I'd like to know how the workforce would be affected. I'd like to know that something is actually being done. 

I think I need to do more research into this. Ageing is something that we're all facing. 

What do you think?


Edited to add:

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


"If facts are the seeds that later produce knowledge and wisdom, then the emotions and the impressions of the senses are the fertile soil in which the seeds most grow." ~Rachel Carson

I've told myself that I'll try to be in a positive frame of mind this week leading up to the birthday. Can one manage one's feelings in that way? I think so. Been struggling today with overall grumpiness brought on by crazy people... actually just people. Sometimes I just don't like being around people. 

Sometimes I do. Had lunch today with one of the girl people. Talked about life and parents and work and guys. Much laughing and serious talk and possibilities. I've said that they keep me sane. It's just very true. 

Ups and downs today. Am just trying to be aware of how I'm feeling and how my moods affect me. 

Happy Wednesday all... 


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Mind power...

Tired tonight... Thoughts swirl and I'm trying to quiet my mind. Happy Tuesday all.


Monday, April 23, 2012

Body Awareness...

"It’s also helpful to realize that this very body that we have, that’s sitting right here right now…with its aches and its pleasures…is exactly what we need to be fully human, fully awake, fully alive." ~Pema Chodron 

It's the week leading up to my birthday... it makes me somewhat contemplative (more so than usual). Spending some time reflecting on the different aspects of myself. I'm going to be 29. Some days I feel very old, some days I feel very young. 

Physically - I feel my years. 

Yesterday, I had a rather epic stumble (yes, epic.. it's an overused word but in this case fairly appropriate). I'm somewhat accustomed to that... steady on my feet is not something I am - though one would think, as a Taurus and as someone who has been doing yoga/tai chi/random other things, I'd be grounded. I blame that on my dad's side of the family for reasons too numerous to mention. Today, my ankle and my knee aches and still I dragged myself went to a Zumba class. 

I bless the moment I decided to attend that first Zumba class. It's very freeing and there is a joy in being able to fully move and use all my limbs. I'm not the most coordinated but... I'm getting there... the moves are coming easier, I feel the difference in my body (muscles! I have muscles again!). Sometimes I try to be aware of each movement of my body (breathe in and out, tense and relax), sometimes I just try to flow with the music. In some ways I think I'm more fit now than I've been at most other times in my life. I am definitely happier with my body than I've been at other points in my life. I've never been very fond of exercise but... there's something to be said of the ability to use one's body as it's meant to be used and I've found that it's a very good way to release any stress I may be feeling.

Giving thanks this week... today I give thanks for my body... that I'm healthy and whole and can get it to do what I want it to do (most times). 

Happy Monday all!


Sunday, April 22, 2012

Earth Day today...

"Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk letting the world break your heart, and I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars overhead make my heart whole again and again." ~Oriah Mountain Dreamer 

Earth day today and whilst in previous years I've been all gung ho about getting the message out and telling people what it's about and that it's time we wake up and realise that we have to take care of what we have, this year I'm mellow. 

As I sit here typing I can hear the birds chirping and the wind in the trees and feel the sun on my skin. Each person will come into their own when it's their time to. For now, in this day and moment, I think I'm happy just acknowledging to myself that it is Earth Day, that I'm grateful for all that nature has to offer, that there is a certain peace to be found in such appreciation. 

I don't have much more to say but I've found what others have said (thanks to 

The earth sets some music going in us and dance we must.
~Ludwig Boone 

Look at the earth crowded with growth, new and old bursting from their strong roots hidden in the silent, live ground, each seed according to its own kind…each one knowing what to do, each one demanding its own rights on the earth. So artist, you too from the depths of your soul...let your roots creep forth, gaining strength. 

~Emily Carr

It is a wholesome and necessary thing for us to turn again to the earth and in the contemplation of her beauties to know of wonder and humility. 

~Rachel Carson

Forget not that the earth delights to feel your bare feet and the winds long to play with your hair. 

~Kahlil Gibran

The world is evolving from imperfection to perfection. It needs all love and sympathy; great tenderness and watchfulness are required from each one of us. 

~Hazrat Inayat Khan 

Wishing you all a blessed week. I'm on a countdown... very soon it shall be my birthday. 


Saturday, April 21, 2012


"Explore. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make, the better." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Something that I've thought before: there's a lot happening around us that people just aren't aware of. 

Activities such as comic conventions and cosplay... new moons and meteor showers. I think once one is not actively involved in something that it's then hard for one to become involved... Stepping out of that comfort zone or even just expanding on stuff one is interested in can be very good for the soul though. 

There's a lot happening in the world. Go out and experience. Discover. Adventure!


Friday, April 20, 2012

Wishes and wants...

"Everything comes to us that belongs to us if we create the capacity to receive it." ~Rabindranath Tagore

I've been meaning to do a sorta-wish-list ever since April started... especially as people started asking what I want for my birthday. I usually shrug... what do I want for my birthday? I'd rather spend time adventuring or making memories than acquiring stuff (though if persons want to give me stuff then that's fine). I've got a vague list of things I like that I may at some point get for myself though and so this is what shall make up the list.

Without further ado then:

A list of things (in no particular order) I want that (a) I haven't convinced myself is necessary to my happiness and well-being... or (b) that I just don't have the funds for...
  1. Jewellery (yes.. British spelling - that's the English I use)... Specifically? This or this or this.
  2. Clothing - just about anything from The Book was Better tshirt? Definite Want. The Star Trek dress? Just love. This? Interesting :)
  3. Books... any book really. Fantasy, sci-fi, historical, romance, spiritual, self-help, action? I've currently got my eye on  73 Lessons Every Goddess Must Know, Red as Blood or Tales from the Sisters Grimmer and Let's Pretend This Never Happened: (A Mostly True Memoir).
  4. Random stuff: Soft Kitty and also this kitty, retro ballistics (I don't know what I'd do with them... but I want them), mini megaliths (cuz really? who knows when/if I'll get to visit the big version?), a new camera (I don't know which... must do research), any print type thing/pretty stuff from either Amy Brown or Nene Thomas.
  5. To be a spy.
What should I want for my birthday? World peace? I don't know really... Will just be happy enjoying each moment as it comes.


Thursday, April 19, 2012

Poems and poetry...

"Poetry is the revelation of a feeling that the poet believes to be interior and personal which the reader recognizes as his own." ~Salvatore Quasimodo

I haven't much written anything related to this month's NaBloPoMo theme of 'Poem' and have also said that I don't really write poetry... that may not necessarily be all true. At Kripalu I was part of a ... writing group... we met up maybe once a week, focused on a theme, wrote for maybe 10 minutes and then discussed or listened to what we'd written/what our thoughts were etc. Most of my writing during that time was... poetry... maybe I'll post it up here at some point.

I found this blog today: 'Is this Alt Lit?' - the writing is beautiful and resonates with me in ways that I can't explain. I'm looking forward to reading more from her.

The prompts for this month's NaBloPoMo are interesting but... well I find it difficult to write to prompts sometimes. A few answers though:
  • Thursday, April 19, 2012 - What aspect of nature feels the most poetic? I find all of nature poetic... which aspect? Um. Maybe the waxing and waning of the moon? Changing seasons? Day into night? I have no response.
  • Tuesday, April 17, 2012 - Are you more a haiku or an epic poem? Um... maybe both? A haiku one day... an epic poem the next?
  • Wednesday, April 4, 2012 - What is the best romantic poem you've ever encountered? She walks in beauty (Lord Byron)
Happy Thursday all...


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Distracted tonight...

"It's hard for many to imagine, but having fun, feeding your passions, and engaging your talents are simple steps that will take you to the bigger answers you seek." ~Jonathan H. Ellerby 

I'm distracted tonight it seems... can't settle on any one thing to blog about. I've been chatting and on Facebook and on Twitter and I guess tonight was just for being in contact with people. Stayed home from work today - I feel relaxed and rested though I did have a busy day... There are many things on my mind but... I figured I'd just post something fun tonight. 


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

A lot of random talk about muffins.

"I believe the world to be a muffin pan, and there certainly are a lot of muffins here." ~Aaron Funk

I've got muffins on my mind today and since my last few posts have been serious or gloomy I thought I'd do a random post. About muffins. Because muffins rule.

Once upon a time, way back when I was an undergrad, my girl group and I had to do a marketing project. We chose to do it on Kiss Muffins... and then had to do a lot of research and running around to find out information about muffins and Kiss Muffins. Whilst doing research we stumbled across this awesome site by Amy Winfrey and admittedly wasted a bit of time laughing at the various muffin films that she had (there were only 12 then... so pleased to see another 6!).  Some of the running around we did? We chased after a Kiss truck... three girls in a tiny car chasing after a Kiss truck... I'm not sure what the driver thought but he didn't have what we wanted anyway (posters - we wanted posters). These are the events that memories are made of. We eventually pulled together a fabulous presentation (complete with Muffin Man) and got a good grade as well.

Some time before that, I became obsessed with carrot muffins as I've said in this previous post. I find it interesting that I love carrot in both muffins and cake but don't really like it otherwise. Too many years of being told to eat carrots I guess. 

Recently I learnt that the cute guy doesn't like muffins with fruit. Ergh. He shall miss out on all the goodness that is any kind of berry muffin... or apple cinnamon? or banana nut? Ergh? On the other hand... this means more for me... Hmm... :)

Today I logged in to blogger with the intention of randomly talking about muffins... and there, in my blogs that I read list, was this post (savory muffins with sweet potato and feta) from A Veggie Venture... synchronicity... I love it.

Go out and have a muffin people... they're awesome.


Monday, April 16, 2012

I have words...

"I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime." ~Elizabeth Kubler-Ross 

Guaico left a comment on Saturday's blog post saying that she had no words about this. The newspaper reports that "ninety-one (91) or 40.8% of the 223 cancer patients over-radiated by the Brian Lara Cancer Treatment Center (BLCTC) are dead". I have words... a few of them are: 

My feelings about that incident are somewhat skewed towards the negative. I think today is for speaking of incidents that disturb me. The fact that this could happen... that such an error could be made and not swiftly corrected and not communicated to those that it would be most important to... that something like this would be hidden and not investigated thoroughly and in a timely fashion...  that I may not even know half of what's going on or what's true or not true about the whole situation because of lack of transparency and reporting... it is all horrible. 

Another situation that has me... gloomy. Sad, in a what's-going-on-with-the-world kind of way? This. The family is friends of my family. I remember going there with my mom as a little girl for satsang (my brother and I would both fall asleep during and wake up at the end)... Small things come back to you when you reflect on how you know someone and for someone to disrupt their lives in such a way... Heartbreaking. That's the word that comes to mind. 

Something that has me annoyed. Vexed. Grumpy in a way that I'm not usually. Work... of course. Of course. I wish that people would stop wasting my time... that those in higher management would actually figure out what they can and can't do. That they'd acknowledge whether or not they are able to fulfill their responsibilities... that they'd remove themselves from the equation if they can't.

I think tonight's word is responsibility... something that I believe we all need to look at. What are we responsible for? What impact do our choices make? Whose world do we shatter? Whose future do we build?

I have words. I hope that, in some way, they make an impact.


Sunday, April 15, 2012

Today, I...

"Each moment is a place you've never been." ~Mark Strand

...continued on my quest for Total Room Domination (translation - I'm trying to clean my room before my birthday). 

...thought to myself that it's hard to give enough time to everything that I'd like to give time to. Right now it's my parents. Hmm. slept on, kneaded and gnawed by the Cat. 

...went to a lime with my mom and brother - with my mom's girl people to discuss the current 40 days... and the messages and our take on them and... just general ole talk as well. 

...went for ice-cream/dessert with the brother and his girlfriend. Was joined by the cute guy... am somewhat curious to hear the brother's (and his gf's) thoughts on the cute guy.

...went to Palmiste Park with the cute guy... met up with another friend. Limed. Ole-talked. 

...came to the realisation that most of my days are fairly good days. 

Hope your days are good as well.


Edited to add: I got posted! Or I guess I should say, 'today my photo got posted!'... to TriniLikeSalt's 'A Thousand Faces' blog that I've mentioned here. It made me smile. 

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Saturday, April 14

"We know nothing of tomorrow; our business is to be good and happy today." ~Sydney Smith 

Stream of consciousness... 5 minutes and... go.

Have had a headache all day - I really don't like headaches... or the fact that I can't take strong pain medication. It's felt like a day for not doing much - for resting and feeling sorry for myself because hello? my head aches. I didn't though.. at least for most of the day. I got up and moved around. Was very excited about the world premier of The Legend of Korra. Went to a photowalk around the Queen's Park Savannah to take photos of poui trees - ended up at the Botanical Garden... I haven't been there in forever. It's beautiful and inspiring and refreshing for the soul. Went to after-photowalk lime... ole talked... had fun. Different perspectives, different people, different times and places. Is all good. I've got a headache. Posting then bedtime for me. 


Friday, April 13, 2012

Energy Rising...

"There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost." ~Martha Graham

I've been feeling tired all week... and grumpy... and generally overall in a fairly bad mood. Starting to feel better though - maybe it's because of the weekend or maybe it's that next week is the new moon. It may be any of a number of things but... I find the following interesting... because of course I love astrology and the changing skies and the energy that may or may not be there.
Wishing you a blessed weekend... get some rest, have some fun, spend some time with someone you love (even if it's some personal time with yourself).


Thursday, April 12, 2012


No quote today because I'm posting this bit of prose from Khalil Gibran taken from The Prophet...

And an orator said, "Speak to us of Freedom."

And he answered:

At the city gate and by your fireside I have seen you prostrate yourself and worship your own freedom,

Even as slaves humble themselves before a tyrant and praise him though he slays them.

Ay, in the grove of the temple and in the shadow of the citadel I have seen the freest among you wear their freedom as a yoke and a handcuff.

And my heart bled within me; for you can only be free when even the desire of seeking freedom becomes a harness to you, and when you cease to speak of freedom as a goal and a fulfillment.

You shall be free indeed when your days are not without a care nor your nights without a want and a grief,

But rather when these things girdle your life and yet you rise above them naked and unbound.

And how shall you rise beyond your days and nights unless you break the chains which you at the dawn of your understanding have fastened around your noon hour?

In truth that which you call freedom is the strongest of these chains, though its links glitter in the sun and dazzle the eyes.

And what is it but fragments of your own self you would discard that you may become free?

If it is an unjust law you would abolish, that law was written with your own hand upon your own forehead.

You cannot erase it by burning your law books nor by washing the foreheads of your judges, though you pour the sea upon them.

And if it is a despot you would dethrone, see first that his throne erected within you is destroyed.

For how can a tyrant rule the free and the proud, but for a tyranny in their own freedom and a shame in their won pride?

And if it is a care you would cast off, that care has been chosen by you rather than imposed on you.

And if it is a fear you would dispel, the seat of that fear is in your heart and not in the hand of the feared. 

Verily all things move within your being in constant half embrace, the desired and the dreaded, the repugnant and the cherished, the pursued and that which you would escape.

These things move within you as lights and shadows in pairs that cling.

And when the shadow fades and is no more, the light that lingers becomes a shadow to another light.

And thus your freedom when it loses its fetters becomes itself the fetter of a greater freedom.



Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Finding peace in the mundane.

"Stillness, insight, and wisdom arise only when we can settle into being complete in this moment, without having to seek or hold on to or reject anything." ~Jon Kabat-Zinn 

Number of shirts ironed for male parent: 10
Epiphany (does it count if it occurs every time I iron?): Wrinkle-free shirts don't necessarily stay wrinkle-free.


Found myself ironing shirts this evening because my dad forgot to tell me over the very long weekend that he was out of shirts. One day my dad will either learn to iron his own shirts... or be retired and no longer have the need to have ironed shirts... that day is not today though. There have been times in the past (and present) where I have been very grumpy about ironing... or doing other household stuff (not laundry - I've mentioned previously that we each do our own)... I'm trying to be less so. I'm finding it easier to be less grumpy.

The cute guy asked me recently what made me go off and become a volunteer at Kripalu. It was a combination of reasons that included just wanting to go there and work-stress and lack of direction and also that I was tired of taking care of people. This doesn't make me a bad person and shouldn't make me feel guilty... but it kinda does... cuz of course the people I'm talking about are my own family members. I think at the time I was reaching burnout and just needed space to breathe | recharge | reconnect... I think I found that or the beginnings of that at Kripalu

I've been taking care of/helping take care of my family since I was around 13. I know that there are people that have been in much worse situations... and I know that really, in some ways, I had it easy... This doesn't change the fact that I'm sometimes very tired of the feeling that I've been running (helping to run) a household forever. Groceries, breakfasts and lunches, school and work and exams and people needing to be ready on time, bills and oh no... is the house falling apart? I'm tired of that sometimes. It makes me feel as though I would like to live by myself for a while... and that's part of why I went off to Kripalu

Ironing today though and thinking bout this and realised that whilst it sometimes drives me crazy there is a certain peace to be found in doing the everyday, ordinary things. It's a feeling that I've had whilst washing dishes but... ironing? Today I think I just sank into the experience... being in the moment... breathing. There is also that bit of joy that comes with helping out others. It's something I need to be more aware of... try to experience more of. 

I know it's not always going to be easy - there are moments when I think that it's only my hands that are able to fill ice trays or take out the garbage or do any number of things - there are moments when I need to appreciate the brother's cooking or the father's handiness or the mother's presence. 

I'm trying though... and I guess that's the best anyone can do.


Tuesday, April 10, 2012

A Thousand Words...

"All our words are but crumbs that fall down from the feast of the mind." ~Khalil Gibran 

There's a movie out this year called 'A Thousand Words' - Shoeaholic and I saw a bit of the preview whilst in the lunchroom today. The main part of the preview that caught my attention was that the main character was cursed such that he only has a thousand words left to speak/write before he dies. 

How much is a thousand words? I've written assignments and project papers that are far more than a mere thousand. In terms of everyday life though... how much is a thousand words?

If you had only a thousand words left... to speak... to write... who would you use them on? What would you say? 

I often think that things happen for a reason... a sort of synchronicity if you will... Seeing that preview made me think about how I use my words. I was really annoyed today... workplace issues... oy. It occurred to me that I could spend time fussing and wasting my breath and generally being most grumpy with the world and that would really affect me... take away my joy and just waste my time. Why speak/write something that won't be heard? I think that one must choose wisely when one has something to impart whether or not the person receiving the information is placing as much value as you are in sharing it. 

Trying to observe how I use my words this week. 


Monday, April 9, 2012

The Hunger Games...

"If you will practice being fictional for a while, you will understand that fictional characters are sometimes more real than people with bodies and heartbeats". ~Richard Bach

Saw the first movie of the Hunger Games trilogy last night. I'm fairly sure that the book will be better... have denied myself the pleasure of reading the books just so that I won't be disappointed (as I usually am by films made from books) but... after seeing the movie I'm sure the book will be better. 

Plot... I need some back-story. 

It's a somewhat disturbing story... I'm not giving spoilers here am I? A kill or be killed type story. Sacrifice. Entertainment. Cruelty. Triumph? I'm not quite sure. 

A part of me was horrified at the killing and the crowd reaction. A part of me completely understood the setup... the kill or be killed mentality, the punishment and warning system. 

There is a part of me that thrills at swords and blades and bows and arrows and battle. In this day and age though the greater part of my makeup would not allow for violence... 

I'm curious about other people's reactions to the books/movie.