I have words...

"I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime." ~Elizabeth Kubler-Ross 

Guaico left a comment on Saturday's blog post saying that she had no words about this. The newspaper reports that "ninety-one (91) or 40.8% of the 223 cancer patients over-radiated by the Brian Lara Cancer Treatment Center (BLCTC) are dead". I have words... a few of them are: 

My feelings about that incident are somewhat skewed towards the negative. I think today is for speaking of incidents that disturb me. The fact that this could happen... that such an error could be made and not swiftly corrected and not communicated to those that it would be most important to... that something like this would be hidden and not investigated thoroughly and in a timely fashion...  that I may not even know half of what's going on or what's true or not true about the whole situation because of lack of transparency and reporting... it is all horrible. 

Another situation that has me... gloomy. Sad, in a what's-going-on-with-the-world kind of way? This. The family is friends of my family. I remember going there with my mom as a little girl for satsang (my brother and I would both fall asleep during and wake up at the end)... Small things come back to you when you reflect on how you know someone and for someone to disrupt their lives in such a way... Heartbreaking. That's the word that comes to mind. 

Something that has me annoyed. Vexed. Grumpy in a way that I'm not usually. Work... of course. Of course. I wish that people would stop wasting my time... that those in higher management would actually figure out what they can and can't do. That they'd acknowledge whether or not they are able to fulfill their responsibilities... that they'd remove themselves from the equation if they can't.

I think tonight's word is responsibility... something that I believe we all need to look at. What are we responsible for? What impact do our choices make? Whose world do we shatter? Whose future do we build?

I have words. I hope that, in some way, they make an impact.

peace,

Ren