Saturday, February 23, 2013

Moment by moment...

I think perhaps this year is truly a lesson in learning to live moment by moment. Appreciate the positives, let go of the negatives, breathe. 

The girl people sent me flowers after that last post. I'm reminded every day that, when there are moments when I'm overwhelmed or tired/sad/angry, there are people who will be there to listen or provide hugs or chocolate or moments for me to grab some rest.

The mother has somewhat stabilized but is definitely on the decline. The human body can only tolerate so much - seventeen years is a long time to be suffering physically. I've been annoyed by family who seem to think we aren't doing enough to keep her with us... I may have offended a few by suggesting that since they aren't experiencing what we do every day then they don't know the whole picture and should refrain from useless 'advice'. Ah well.

I'm learning a lot about myself... what I can and can't do, how much more patience and tolerance I need to learn, how much I already have, how I interact with people. I am more than the sum of my parts. I am bonding with my mom, I'm trying to be more understanding of my dad, I'm grateful for my brother. I am exploring the relationship with the cute guy. 

I feel old and also, at the same time, very young.

Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day... I'm making it my own.

Happy weekend world...

peace,
Ren

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