Saturday, May 12, 2012

3 a.m.

I've been waking up around 3 a.m. all week. Side effect of antibiotics? The results of getting enough sleep? I think I've read somewhere that our natural sleeping rhythm is early bedtime then awake for an hour or two or three before another bit of sleeping - we've just evolved out of that due to regular workdays and the evolution of nighttime entertainment. This is perhaps not something I should be concerned about or is perhaps the least of my worries.

Am a bit concerned about this infection - humans should have the built-in abilities to heal themselves... Somewhat like how Christine Feehan's Carpathians can - to become energy and seek out and repair what is wrong with our bodies. Yes, I know one can visualize... It's kinda what I've been doing... But I'd like concrete proof that it's working... I'd really like to start feeling better now.

There is pain in waves that crash over me. Shatter. I am undone. I can't help but wonder if this is a smidgen of what my mom feels everyday. There are conversations and discussions that need to happen soon. Some things are better said in person even though I'd prefer writing. Today I'm supposed to attend a baby shower. Tomorrow is Mother's Day. It's a very female weekend I'm going to be having. Trying to keep the spirits up and not worry those around me.

Happy Saturday all... Hope your weekend is blessed.

Peace,
Ren

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