Trying to avoid some doom-and-gloom feelings...

"No matter what the issue is, don’t try to justify why you don’t feel good. And don’t try to justify why you should feel differently. Don’t try to blame whatever it is you think the reason is that’s keeping you from feeling good. All of that is wasted effort. Just try to feel better right now." ~Abraham-Hicks 

I've been in a gloomy mood for most of this weekend. I've got some final school work to do and that's the main cause... it's a mystery to me my ability to sit and write anything except school work-type-stuff. I can write sensible and most times pretty great reports for work in any kind of time-crunch. I can write blog posts out of a barest hint of an idea. Why, dear Goddess, can I not find the words to finish this school work? Aargh. Hand-in date for this stuff - April 26th - 2 days before my birthday. It really needs to get done. Soon. For my peace of mind and emotional well-being. 

I'm also in a bit of a mood because of my upcoming birthday... it's weird - I'm usually very happy about my birthday. Am not sure what it is but this year seems to be one of great self-evaluation. What do I want for myself (and why - I can't just leave it at the initial question - there must be some sort of rationale). 

My head aches and my eyes ache and it's hot. I am bummy. Bleh. 

On the upside?

• I'm learning to make jewellery - which is something I've been wanting to do for some time - attended the 2nd class yesterday... go me!
• I got ice-cream - Cheesecake with waffle cone mixed in - bless you Cold Stone Creamery... and bless you mom & M for going with me. 
• Chef Nate Appleman won the Chopped All-Stars competition - yay! 
• Found this site through stumbling - it has amused me. It analyses your past life by using the date you were born in this life... it may be bogus but I am still amused... this is what I got:

"Your past life diagnosis:

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I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern South Japan around the year 1050. Your profession was that of a builder of roads, bridges and docks.

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Your brief psychological profile in your past life:Person with huge energy, good in planning and supervising. If you were just garbage-man, you were chief garbage-man.

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The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:You are bound to learn to understand other people and to meet all difficulties of life with a joyful heart. You should help others by bringing them a spirit of joy.

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Do you remember now?"

I must try to remember to help others by bringing them a spirit of joy (um :s .. how?). I've always felt that I was once in Japan. No comment on the chief garbage-man (woman) position... lol 

Trying to be on the happy side. Wishing you a positive week ahead.

peace,

Ren

Timed Post Tuesday! (idk what it will be about yet...)

"If you nurture your mind, body, and spirit, your time will expand. You will gain a new perspective that will allow you to accomplish more." ~Brian Koslow 

I've been thinking of doing a timed post... what is it? It's where you time yourself... maybe 5 minutes... or 10 (or more) and just write... No censoring... just transferring what's in your head to paper... or in this case a blog post. So. I'm giving myself 10 minutes to see what comes out. Ready? Set. Go!

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It's 11.17 and I just killed a mosquito... except that it isn't dead cuz it just flew away again. Super Mosquito? Am sure that I squashed it. This is not what I want to be writing about. Perhaps I'll start over... it's 11.17 and some more seconds and I initially thought I'd start blogging at 11. Except that I was watching Chopped Champions on the Food Network and was distracted - Food Network can take up a lot of my time if I'm not careful. I don't agree with the winning decision - Pnina should have won. Oh well and letting it go now. For some reason I ended up on the Food Network Chopped page and look! there's a twitter feed! and Aarti Sequeira is on Twitter... AARTI!!! For those of you that don't know about Aarti and her Paarti I shall provide the link...after I'm done with this timing. You see? Food Network can be distracting not just from tv viewing but because of their website and twitter feeds and facebook pages and such. Sometimes I think we have too much technology going on. Surely one day we'll hit overload? Or maybe we'll just evolve such that our brains .. senses.. can absorb data at lightning speeds... 

My brother told me today about a creature (is it a snake? lizard? - ergh I can't remember) that scientists have found to be evolving... apparently the creature lives on the slopes of a mountain so that there are some in the valley and some higher up the mountain... those at the base lay eggs but those higher up have evolved such that they now don't lay eggs... the young grow inside like with us. Evolution... it's happening all around. 

It's New Moon in Virgo today I believe... an earth sign and I read a really great article about Spider Woman - she's a Goddess though I can't remember which religion... Native American maybe? It's interesting for me cuz it speaks about weaving webs and linkages. I've always thought that people - humans - souls weave webs... spin dreams out of nothing - into the past and into the future and there are all these connections between people, places, things (I remember a game called 'boy, girl, place, thing' - that's neither here nor there at the moment). I just find it interesting. New moon means setting intentions... earthy new moon means grounding and strengthening and building intentions. 

Am still trying to figure out what my intentions are. There's the mosquito again! and it's 11.27. 

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So I think I ramble... but perhaps not. A timed post is cleansing in its own way... Maybe I should have given myself 15 minutes. Or maybe I'll do another timed post on Thursday! :D 

Here are the links to what I was thinking/talking about:

Chopped: Food Network

Aarti Paarti!: Blog  & Twitter & Aarti on Food Network

Spider Woman and the Virgo New Moon

good night all!

peace,

Rtr

ETA: New Moon was on the 8th (Wednesday)