New Year, new beginnings...

"Visualize this thing you want. See it, feel it, believe in it. Make your mental blueprint and begin." ~Robert Collier

Happy New Year! 

It's only a few days into 2014 and it already seems to be a busy year. I have a lot of... projects... that are in various stages of development. Opportunities and new beginnings. Transitions. Interactions. 

There's a lot going on with me; mentally, emotionally, physically. I'm figuring out where I want to be. I'm not yet one hundred percent sure where that is and I'm okay with that. At this time it's all about enjoying the process. Connecting with my inner self and finding guidance where I can.

A few days ago my brother and I found some old books that my mom used as journals. It is strange to be reading them and yes, I'm reading them. I think that it is from her that I have this need to write to express myself. I think that part of blogging, where the world can see, is to avoid the strangeness that is finding hidden books after death - revealing words, thoughts and emotions of times and places past. Many times we would talk about how I would write her biography but we never really started compiling notes or memories. Perhaps part of this lesson is to do what needs to be done in the present because there may never be a future time when it can come into being. It is interesting reading her thoughts of the everyday mundane things and of her own quest for Self. Purpose? Whatever it is that we all search for whether we acknowledge it or not. 

Today I started a project 52 - one photo a week for the rest of the year. I'm fairly sure I can stick to it. My photo is of a tea set for one that I had bought for my mom to match with a bag that my brother had bought for her. Sometimes the best way to start the day is with a cup of tea. Sometimes the best way to start a year is to take a moment for quiet introspection in the midst of busy days.

1/52

Wishing you all that you dream of for 2014!

peace,

Ren

11/11/11

“... on 11-11-11, we get a very rare opportunity to see the grey areas that lie between. That space that is so vast that it often separates us from others dissipates on this one day, drawing us closer to others and allowing us to connect in ways we normally just can’t.” ~Hans Decoz

There's still a full moon in Taurus - go out and do some moon-gazing if you're so inclined. Thanks to NIHERST, my brother and I were able to view last night's full moon through a telescope... also saw Jupiter and three of its moons. It's a bit awe-inspiring? A bit of grace? I don't know/can't say what's the emotion really - it's different looking up at the sky through a telescope - makes you more aware of just how tiny we are in comparison to what else is here. Then again, this may all just be a figment of our imagination. 

It's the eleventh of November 2011 - 11/11/11 - lots of talk about it... master numbers, beginnings, wishes, hope, prayer. 

What does it mean for me? According to Tarot.com, 

"All in all, you should be able to pause for a quick breath this month. But come 11/11/11, your level of tact with others is somewhere down at the bottom of the well -- which isn't great for matters of the heart. 11/11 is more likely to deliver a break up than a meeting of hearts, so if you are single or in a relatively new relationship, you may want to be careful what you say and how you say it. You are also more susceptible to illness on this date, and would do well to refrain from alcohol or anything else that weakens your system.

Though it's been a shaky month in a very hectic year for you so far, things should start to level off in the coming weeks."

Hmm. What does it mean for me? 

News story tonight about a woman celebrating her 100th birthday today... That's another level of amazing. 

Beginning again. That's what I'm doing. I go through phases, as I suppose we all do. Ups and downs and starting and stopping. I've been feeling stagnant and it's time to start moving again. 

Shift in consciousness? Awareness. Faith. Belief. 

I'm thinking about contributing something to the 11ElevenProject. I'm just grateful that there are such projects - that people are willing to share and contribute towards a better whatever-we-have-here. 

Blessings to you all tonight. 

peace,

Ren

Starting...

"The grace to be a beginner is always the best prayer for an artist. The beginner’s humility and openness lead to exploration. Exploration leads to accomplishment. All of it begins at the beginning, with the first small and scary step."
~ Julia Cameron 

It's probably one of the things I find hardest to do... starting a project. Whether it be with blogging... or with work... or with school assignments... or anything really... the hardest part for me is starting. 

Here I am though. At the beginning... once again. That's the second hardest thing for me I guess... What is? Continuing... lol... I've started a blog so many times as I've started journalling so many times and yet at this moment here I am starting all over again. 

I've always told people and I've always known that one of my best modes of expression is through writing. My thoughts flow direct from my brain to my fingers in a continuous stream of what's going on...what's happening...what I'm thinking... self-inquiry at its best perhaps. 

Why do I stop then? Why is it that I've got to start all over? I think it's that I get so caught up in what's going on and what I'm doing and what I have to do/got to do/should be doing that I don't take that moment necessary to process... 

This is it then... another attempt on the journey. I'm not going to feel guilty if I fall off the wagon... I am going to commit to doing this till my birthday... Day by day I'll see how it goes... it's said that if you do an activity for a month it becomes a habit... I guess I'll be finding out.

peace, 
Rtr