Cat scratches, love bites and belly rubs

Our pets mourn us when we're gone.

My hand has tiny scratches and my knuckles were chewed on last night. The Cat has become clingy. Needy. He goes into my mom's room to look for her and then cries. We have been blessed with cats that are vocal... our previous cat had a very melodious voice, our current cat can carry on full conversations - changes in intonation that let us know his moods. He meows questioningly and then cries. Oy. I've been spending time with him... more play, more petting. We've told him that mom has passed and I think he understands in his own way. He is now keeping an eye on the three of us at home. My brother thinks that the Cat is concerned that another one of us may leave. I wonder if he'd been around to see my mom at the moment of her passing if he'd be less clingy.

Our Dog seems to be handling my mom's passing fairly well though I've noticed he's been eating less. He was present during the funeral rites at my home - sat quietly under a table and observed all that was happening. I've been trying to give him more belly rubs than usual. We've had him for the past almost-13 years and I know he and mom were close. Will have to keep an eye on him.

Send love to my entire family... we're all grieving in our own ways, human and animal alike.

peace,

Ren

Things that can annoy me at 3 a.m.

"Every failure to cope with a life situation must be laid, in the end, to a restriction of consciousness. Wars and temper tantrums are the makeshifts of ignorance; regrets are illuminations come too late." ~Joseph Campbell 

In no particular order:

• being ill - especially when there's a lot going on right now.
• the family dog - who apparently does not sleep but talks to other dogs in the neighbourhood throughout the night. My mom has told me repeatedly that he's just an animal (and our pet! - there must be love) but... he's not barking outside your bedroom when you're trying to sleep mom. This is why I will forever love cats more than dogs... cats do their own thing in the night... have never been awakened and kept awake by any cat... cats are just quieter.
• mosquitoes - because even when you try to clear out all from the room before bedtime they're still there... and they don't annoy you in groups... they annoy you one at a time... we need to get more mosquito swatters.
• webbing - because webbing in my house = huge xyz spiders... I'm comfortable with tiny little spiders but not huge spiders bigger than my hand. After being awakened by the points above I decided to use the bathroom... I go through the door and there is webbing... across my legs... O_o I hastily back out of there (not gonna turn around - who knows what's in there?!) ... I actually know what's in there - a spider bigger than my hand - I know because I saw it yesterday morning before I left for work and then told my dad to get rid of it - of course he said he couldn't find it (am not sure he even looked!) but... until such time as it is found and removed (I don't care how it is removed) I'll be using my parents' bathroom... because I have seen Arachnophobia and the shower scene was very memorable.
• school-work- because it's on my mind.
• work work - because I'd like to take today off as I'm not feeling well and would like to spend all day in bed but I also want to take two days off next week for the birthday so... hmm.
• the fact that I'm annoyed to start with - I'm a big girl... I know about the world and whatnot... none of these things should bother me yet I am annoyed... and also not sleeping. 

*sigh*

Hope you all have a good day...

peace,

Ren

Customization...

"Creation is a sentient and instinctual flow that determines where to go and what to change or omit."
~Shaun McNiff

I should have been writing some post about my weekend... instead I was playing around with blogger and layouts and such...

Got pounded... submerged... tossed around... by waves at Maracas Beach on Saturday... It sucks sometimes being small and non-heavy. Spent time with the parents... ate pineapple chow & corn soup though not at the same time... Got some shades darker.... Yay for tanning and not sun-burning!  Was reminded of being playful and enjoying the moment by a dog pack... How big a group does a pack have to be before it's labelled as a pack? Got one of the dogs to pose for the camera...  

Sunday... Happy Easter!!! I can still say that as it's now Easter Monday and a holiday in T&T... sweet T&T - I love you for all the holidays... I thought Sunday would be a lazy day.. and it was in part... my dad made mango chow... and that's the 2nd time I've mentioned chow in this post... maybe I'm hungry? lol I've noticed that tends to happen at this hour... 

It's a long weekend... I feel rested somewhat... focused somewhat... my horoscope for today just appeared in my inbox and I am a force to be reckoned with! though I also have to be cautious about risk taking and planning for the future.. hmmm. 

I should go to bed. Workshop on chakras & leadership in the morning... looking forward to the workshop... not looking forward to having to be with some of the people that will be there... Please universe... let me be nice and non-scary to the ppl even if they annoy me. Thank you. 

Love to you world... it's a good time of year... 

peace,

Rtr