Days like today...

"Develop a passion for learning. If you do, you will never cease to grow." ~Anthony J. D'Angelo 

It's days like the one I had today and probably will have tomorrow that remind me what I love about my job. It's the sharing and the ideas and the potential for something to happen. Today I met with persons from Canada, Barbados, Jamaica, St. Lucia, St. Kitts & Nevis, Antigua and Barbuda, Guyana... and others I may not be remembering. Although my insides cringe at meeting new people and being in new settings it's fun to interact and learn and talk about stuff. Stuff like technical vocational training, labour market information, best practices and models, demand and supply. Years from now will we be able to look back and say we saw this coming, we planned for it and here we are?

Maybe.

Maybe not. It's the 'maybe not' that's part of why I don't like my job... because there is so much possibility and yet there is so much poor management, politics and bureaucracy and ego. 

There is a part of me that wishes that I could rip it all apart and put it back together. Systems and models and ways in which the world could work. Went to the movies yesterday with a new friend to see Chronicle... it's such a guy movie and I thought it ended abruptly yet there were very good plot points... I've been thinking about it. At the end of the trailer for that movie the question is asked: "What are you capable of?" 

Dark side and light side and either way that's a very interesting question. 

When I was maybe 12 or so I remember reading a book (Dream something? something dream? - it sucks that I can't remember the *name* of the book) where everyone in the society were exposed to different skills/tasks till they found their true calling.. that one thing (or more than one thing) that they were meant to do for the society to function at its best. 

I wonder about what it would take to have our present society functioning at its best.

I've got another day of workshops tomorrow... Yay me! :)

night,

Ren

p.s. Happy Leap Day!

Friendships... society... thoughts...

"Loving friendships provide us with a space to experience the joy of community in a relationship where we learn to process all our issues, to cope with differences and conflict while staying connected." ~bell hooks 

Tired tonight as I went on two different limes - two different places - two different groups of people.

The first was a birthday party - celebrating the 2nd birthday of the daughter of one of my oldest friends. It was fun... and reminded me a bit of my own early childhood - my mom liked to organise and have birthday parties for us. The food and the cakes were excellent (it was a cupcake themed party - the cake was all cupcakes). The company was interesting - old schoolmates that I haven't seen in a while as well as family members of my friend. What wasn't so great? The fact that I was the only single, child-less female. Is it unacceptable to be single and childless?? I had people asking me why I was sticking.. and also mentioning the fact that 'something is missing'. Nothing is missing and I am not sticking. What will be, will be and I have not yet found any person that I wish to spend extended periods of time with or that I wish to procreate with. I'm a bit sad though that any children I may have in the future would not be able to have play-dates with the children of these friends. 

The second lime was a girls' lime -it  was initially supposed to be a lime for our entire undergrad class but persons were unresponsive so it morphed into a girls' lime. In this setting I am not strange. My friends in this group are my age, females who have been more inclined to study and get jobs than to getting their family started. It's somewhat interesting to see how alike and unalike these groups are.

It's interesting to look at the society and try to figure out just what is happening. How do different groups of people evolve? 

Had a good time at both events though. Learnt that little children like me - for some odd reason this makes me happy. Learnt that no matter how late I try to be - I'll always end up early...  not sure if that's a blessing or a curse. Learnt that people seem to think that the louder a place is, the more fun is being had. 

Ah well. I'm tired.. but it was a good evening.

Happy Saturday all :)

peace,

Ren